Where Do Forgotten Memories Go, Mom?

I worked in adult literacy for a great many years and promoting family literacy – including the importance of reading to (and with) your children – was a huge part of the work that we did. I do not recall learning to read but I figure it must have happened sometime between Kindergarten and Grade 1. I spent countless hours of my childhood buried in books, and yet I only have one photo of my Dad reading to me and my little sister, and none at all of Mom reading to us (there is a painful social commentary in there about parenting in the 60s that I will leave for another day). The point is, one day many years ago, now, my curiosity got the better of me: “Mom, did you read to us when we were little?” I asked. I still recall the surprised, halfway-hurt look on her face as she answered me. “Of course I did! All the time! Don’t you remember?” Well no, I didn’t remember. I asked her that question over 20 years ago and I still feel the surge of shame and chagrin as I wish I could take back my words and erase that look from my mother’s face.

Recently, I was on the phone with Mom and as tends to happen these days – her short-term memory is sketchy and was flitting all over the place, while her long-term memory was as clear as a bell. I live very near the city where we lived when I was a young child and she always recalls those years – and that place – with great fondness. It didn’t take long for her to drift into a clear recollection of the days when I was a 3 to 6-year-old child. “Oh, I loved going to the Saturday-morning market with you and your sister when you were little. Do you remember the kittens, honey?” she asked me.

“Gee Mom, I didn’t know you took us there at all,” I said, surprised. To my knowledge, my husband introduced me to that market just a few years ago. He was astonished when I told him I had never been there, although it is absolutely wonderful and located in the city where I lived until I was six years old.

“Oh, we used to do so many fun things in those days,” said my Mom, memory now warmed up and flowing freely through the telephone line. She reminisced for several long, lovely minutes and as she talked, I silently marvelled at how I recall almost nothing of those years: of the things we used to do together.

Once again, I was reminded of how thankless a job it can be to parent a child. The difference now, is that I understand this happens to every parent: how many times have I had similar conversations with my own children? (“You don’t remember when we used to do ‘x’, ‘y’ or ‘z’, honey??”). I am always astonished at the wonderful memories of things I did with my children that seem to be mine alone: my children do not recall those events at all. As a parent, you pour all of these experiences and memories into your children; you do a million different loving things with them over the course of their childhood and… they recall only the tiniest fraction of it…

And yet…as I sat and listened to my Mom recount how we went to the beach; how we went for drives in the car; how she took us to the market to see the kittens for sale; how she took us to the wading pool; I realised that while my childhood memory of those moments is sketchy, I did all of those types of things with my own children; with her grandchildren. I might not consciously remember my mother’s wonderful parenting moments, but subconsciously, I was obviously storing away each and every experience so that when I had children of my own, I would do the same with them.

Oh, Mom, thanks so much… perhaps I remembered after all…

Patti Moore Wilson/© wednesdayschildca.wordpress.com

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Author: Patti Moore Wilson, wednesdayschild2

I write what I feel. And I rarely know exactly what I feel until I write. I have lived long enough to have known many joys and many sorrows. I have made many mistakes; I have forgiven myself for a few… I have learned that there are lessons in every step of this journey, if we only take the time to pay attention… I hope you will feel free to pick and choose the stories that resonate for you…

16 thoughts on “Where Do Forgotten Memories Go, Mom?”

  1. Thank you for sharing!… as we are growing up we don’t think about recording memories but live and enjoy life to the fullest, eagerly seeking a new adventure… it is when we get older and suddenly realize that time is moving on do we wish that we took more time to remember…. but as you said, those memories are stored in the spirit and heart, to be used for future reference.. 🙂
    Happy Mothers Day and hope life is all that you wish for it to be!…

    “Life gives us brief moments with another, but sometimes in those brief moments we get memories that last a lifetime, So live that your memories will be part of your happiness.”

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  2. My mother has kind of a tone-deaf quality to her voice. When she read to us, it sounded like a greeting card. I can still remember her voice reading “The Owl and the Pussycat” by Edward Lear. My favorite was during summer vacation when we subscribed to the Time-Life Science series and she would go through each one, explaining what the photographs were to a five and a six and a seven year-old, out on the porch.

    Happy Mother’s Day, Patti.

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  3. My memories with my mother go back to when I was 3 years old. There are even a few scattered memories from an even younger age. I remember Hurricane Hazel coming through our area and some of the after effects. That was October of 1954. That was 16 months after i was born.
    When I was 5 years old and almost ready to start school we moved. That gives me a fixed point of reference for very early memories and later memories of which I have a clearer timeline.

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    1. It does help to have places to refer to for certain ages of our lives. I have points of reference like yours, as well. Very glad you can remember so far back… have you written anything about the hurricane? That would make a great story! Thanks so much for stopping by 😊🙏

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